Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Barry Bonds didn't do steroids?


Let's end this right now. If wasn't steriods, then it was human growth hormone (HGH) or both. There's no question. Men simply cannot put on that much muscle that late in life due to DECLINING testosterone levels.

I'll update this to spell it out a bit more. For now, follow the link and just look at how Bonds gained throughout the years.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

It feels good to not be a loser

I don't know why I forget it sometime, but I do. When I'm down, I choose to stay down, and act like a loser. After going to the gym and beating myself senseless the last 2 days, I wonder why in the HELL I would ever not go work out and feel good.

Working out doesn't feel good. After the workout does. Honestly, I beat myself senseless in the gym. I can only stand 20-30 minutes anymore because I'm hitting things so hard. I love the new intensity, and efficiency. You know, there are even a few moments in the gym that I do have fun. Like when I see my bicep bulge as I do a curl, and think, "Damn, I'm a stud." It's fun in an 8th grade sort of way.

Then today, I sit here resting, taking the day off for recovery, and feeling sore all over. My biceps got the smackdown. My chest and back are screaming from Monday. Every way I move, all throughout the day, my body says to me, "Congrats, you're back on it."

Here's an update on the weight. It's around 216, on any scale I step on. I'm going back to NIFS to get my bodyfat checked, my lean mass weighed, and in 8 weeks I will have dropped 16 pounds overall. It'll probably have to be 20 pounds of fat, and add 4 pounds of muscle. I've done this before, I'm doing it again, and I can just fell that my head is finally back in it.

Why did I take such a long break? More after a few more days of good workouts and higher consciousness.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Countdown Clock 3

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Cheese and wine for health?

From http://www.cheese_wine.iblog.co.za/2006/09/

"Drink no longer water, but use a little wine for thy stomach’s sake and thine often infirmities" The First Epistle of Paul the Apostle to Timothy, 5:23. Louis Pasteur (1822-1895) (who claimed the discovery of vaccination and pasteurisation) said that wine was by far the best anaesthetic and analgesic on the planet (he was also renowned oenologue - a wine scientist).

I love, ABSOLUTELY LOVE reading things hundreds, or thousands of years old that support my way of life. If you didn't know, I've upped my intake of fermented foods, and wine. I may need to enjoy my wine a tad less, but I do know that it's antioxidant effects combined with it's uhhmmm...calming effects are a magic combo for me.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Do you know?

Do you know what it's like to look in a mirror and not recognize yourself? I mean, literally, look, look away, and then realize a moment later..."That was ME in that mirror!"

Have you ever wept tears of joy looking at the man you've made of yourself?

Do you know what it's like to have women hounding YOU?

Ever look at at beautiful woman only to realize she is the one doing a double take back at you?

When was the last time you surprised; nay, flat out SHOCKED yourself with something you've accomplished.

Have you ever said, "I never knew I could be so happy." So happy, that you're almost scared at how good it's getting. In awe, wondering, "How much better will this get, and who will I be then?"

And that's where it ended for me. As soon as it was all going great, I threw it all away. As soon as I started wondering, questioning, doubting if I could handle it all, it all went away. I didn't throw it away consciously. I just focused for a moment on fear, took my eye off my goals, and they were swallowed alive by life itself. Life interrupts death; death conquers life.

So be it. This has happened to me before. Hopefully, it won't happen again. There's no reason to worry about that right now though. For me, for now, I need 100% focus on my upcoming success.

“The secret of change is to focus all your energy, not on fighting for the old, but on building the new.”Socrates